May 27, 2007 by SUM.

Quite a few of my dating encounters in the Seattle area belong also to my uncommon experiences. But I’m coming to the conclusion that these experiences are planned acts and are part of a system that is exercised here in this area.

Since the divorce from my ex-husband I’m single and I live alone. I’m actually living alone since 1994, but my divorce from my ex-husband had been in September 1997. Though I would love to meet a compatible person whereby we complete each other, I’ve not met anyone here with whom I could imagine being in a healthy and joyful relationship. However, I haven’t met any single people for many years due to focusing on other things than dating and/or the lack of opportunity to meet eligible healthy single males in this area.

There were times when I subscribed to different online dating sites. I exchanged a lot of emails with other singles, but that was about it. A few times I met someone for a cup of coffee, but nothing serious developed from these meetings. I have never gotten into a closer relationship with any person whom I had written an email with the exception of one person who I had met during the summer of 1997. And that time had actually not been a good time for me to date anyone because I went through a divorce. But I didn’t know better then.

Though my ex-husband and I had already been living separate for 3 1/2 years (he had moved out of our apartment in Jan/Feb 1994), I was still married to him on paper. And as the psychologists say, being divorced is different than living separate. It certainly pertained to my situation. I still had emotional ties to my ex-husband when I started to date in summer of 1997. And pretty fast it became obvious that I neither was ready for the dating scene nor for any other close relationship with another male partner. I had been married on paper for 18 years and for the next few years my goal was to heal myself from past wounds and getting rid of unhealthy baggage.

Coming back to the statement at the beginning of this post that I believe that many events here in this area are planned, I’ll describe a few incidents that I experienced while subscribing to online dating services. I firmly believe that some people I had met for a cup of coffee were not always the people with whom I had exchanged emails. Some may have been hired or were sent by their buddies as a substitute for someone else.

My first subscription to an online dating service here in the Seattle area was with Matchmaker. A female program manager in another business group at Microsoft had sent me the URL address for this online dating site in July 1997. While communicating with different people through this service, I had some weird encounters while being a subscriber of this service.

For example, Matchmaker organized periodically a social get-together for people who subscribed to their service. One time an event was organized in my neighborhood, while I was living in Tukwila. The social event took place in a bar at a hotel in the Seattle Southcenter vicinity. At one of those planned get-together I met in the hotel bar with George, with whom I had communicated through Matchmaker. At least I thought that he had been the person with whom I had exchanged some emails at that time.

Not many people were in the bar and only a few people from the Matchmaker’s group showed up on that evening. I found it quite unusual to see a group of women showing up there at the same time and performing some kind of a dance with each other on the dance floor. But due to the event being organized, this show had been a planned act. About nine women were dancing together, and from nine of these women one woman stood out. She had long blond hair and was quite pretty. All the others were pale in comparison to her. While dancing on the dance floor they rendered homage to her. It reminded me of priestesses paying homage to their queen. This whole episode seemed almost surreal and somehow farcical.

When I subscribed to Matchmaker, I communicated a lot through email, and I met for some time a few so-called single men for a cup of coffee. But each time that was the end of our communication with the exception of a short-lived relationship with George in August/September 1997.

The people I met were quite often so weird that I started to think that these people were not the ones that I had exchanged emails with. One time I met a man—who according to his own words had a feisty mother—at a chamber concert in Bellevue. This man actually showed up for the concert smelling like he had been doused in alcohol. His speech was quite slurry, too. After my first meeting with him I surely didn’t feel like meeting him again, though I may could use his service. He said that he works as a detective. But who wants a detective who douses himself in alcohol. I certainly wouldn’t want a report that is clouded because of the person’s limited observation and judgment due to excessive use of alcohol. After the concert I was glad to get away from this person and not having to sit next to him anymore. I actually felt embarrassed being seen with a person who smelled like a larva in a bottle of Tequila.

Another time I met a subscriber from Matchmaker in the same bar in Tukwila where the organized Matchmaker event had taken place. As soon we sat down on the bar stools, he ordered Wiskey, and pretty fast I had the impression that he cared more for Wiskey than anything else. Though he had told me that he works in the health care industry, I thought that he may confuse that with working in the intoxicating field and adopting their products.

While communicating through Matchmaker, other people knew, too, that I was on the dating scene. Therefore I encountered situations where I was lured into certain situations or to certain places.

For example, I visited quite frequently the Yarrow Bay Grill at Carillion Point in Kirkland in 1997. There I met a married man, Stan, who worked in the insurance industry. One time Stan told me that he knew a restaurant in Bellevue where a music band was playing music that evening. I told him that I was interested in going there, and he offered to show me where this place was in Bellevue. In my car I followed him and his female friend who accompanied him on that evening. At the Yarrow Beach Cafe he had told me that she is his masseuse.

The restaurant, he showed me, was a Chinese Restaurant in the Commons building in Bellevue on 12th Avenue. I had to pay $5.00 to attend a dingy show at a mediocre restaurant. At that time I didn’t know the area, and I was pretty much on my own.

When we arrived at the Chinese Restaurant, only a few people were at the restaurant’s area where the music band played. I still have the room in front of my eyes. The room was at the left of the main restaurant and had the form of a hallway. It had no nice decorations and looked pretty murky. Little by little a few more people showed up during the evening.

The couple who had brought me to this place kept to themselves, and after a while I talked with a man standing next to me who said that he worked for the Salvation Army. I pretty much conversed only with him while I was at this place.

Not many people came to this place and I remember a black skinny tall woman entering the room with an elderly white man who had a lot of gold jewelry on. Though they stood close by me, I talked mostly with the guy from the Salvation Army with the exception of dancing briefly with someone else one or two times.

After I had been in this dingy room for a while, a tall attractive man in his forties showed up. He sat on a table next to the entrance door like a rooster on a perch. Several times I saw him on the dance floor with one of his dancing accomplices. When I left this back room to leave this establishment, I was suddenly confronted with a very strange action by this prancing man.

Shortly before I reached the door, I had to walk near by the table where he sat. When I was about four feet away from his table, he forcefully stood up and took on a bolt upright position and at the same time he stretched out his right arm in the kind of salute that had been a dominant force during the Third Reich.

Instantly I was stunned by this man’s behavior. And I made automatically a defensive gesture with my right arm, like ‘drop it’, and hurriedly walked out of this room. Outside the building I noticed a white Rolls Royce parked on the sideway next to the restaurant. I didn’t pay further attention to my surroundings at that time, I just wanted to get away from this awful place.

Since this area was pretty new to me and I didn’t know what to make of all this, I kept quiet, but I felt very uncomfortable about this and other incidents that seemed insulting if not to say threatening.

I like to mention another weird encounter of my dating experiences. Lori, a woman who I had met while working at Microsoft had introduced me to a man who invited me to the Seattle Opera and Symphony. In one of our conversations he told me that apartment managers go into people’s apartments and place poison in their food. At that time I was living in an apartment. Additionally, I had found things in my apartment in a different order than I had left them. Therefore I pretty much knew that someone had accessed my apartment without my knowledge. A couple months later, after I had moved to a different city in this area, I noticed that two small things were missing from my household. Since I had not thrown these items away because I had received them as a gift from my mother, someone must have stolen them out of my apartment when I was living in the apartment in Tukwila.

Lori suddenly sold her house, wrote me that she got the money, and moved with her husband to Wisconsin. Anyway, that is what she wrote me in one of her last emails. Afterwards the whole situation surrounding Lori seems like an act. Her sudden departure and disappearance including her last emails call forth questions, which I cannot answer for her. I may should add here that Lori’s last name was the same name like my ex-husband’s name before she married Ulf.

Putting all this stuff aside I’m at a point in my life where I’m emotionally balanced and ready to start a healthy relationship with someone I would like to be with. Therefore I subscribed again to a dating service. But this time I know that Dr. Phil is watching the scene.

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May 24, 2007 by SUM.

I would like to share here a poem, which a former colleague sent in a farewell email to her colleagues. I hardly knew her, we had only a few conversations, and the last time I saw her, before she left the company, she told me that she was going to study law. She is probably a lawyer now. Though I didn’t see her anymore, I didn’t forget her.

She wrote the email in July 1997, and I kept her email over all these years because the poem made sense. It made sense then and now.

So here is the poem that is widely available, also in modified versions, on the Internet. The author is unknown.

LIFE’S ABOUT

Life isn’t about keeping score.
It’s not about how many friends you have,
Or how accepted you are.
Not about if you have plans this weekend,
Or if you’re alone.

It isn’t about who you’re dating,
Who you used to date,
How many people you’ve dated,
Or if you haven’t been with anyone at all.
It isn’t about who you have kissed……

It isn’t about who your family is,
Or how much money they have,
Or what kind of car you drive.
Or where you are sent to school.

It’s not about how beautiful or ugly you are.
Or what clothes you wear, what shoes you have on,
Or what kind of music you listen to.
It’s not about if your hair is blond, red, black, or brown,
Or if your skin is too light or too dark.

Not about what grades you get,
How smart you are,
How smart everybody else thinks you are,
Or how smart standardized tests say you are.

It’s not about what clubs you’re in,
Or how good you are at “your” sport.
It’s not about representing your whole being on a piece of paper
And seeing who will “accept the written you”.

LIFE JUST ISN’T.

But, life is about who you love and who you hurt.
It’s about who you make happy or unhappy purposefully.
It’s about keeping or betraying trust.
It’s about friendship, used as a sanctity or a weapon.
It’s about what you say and mean, maybe hurtful, maybe heartening.
About starting rumors and contributing to petty gossip.
It’s about what judgments you pass and why.
And who your judgments are spread to.

It’s about who you’ve ignored with full control and intention.
It’s about jealousy, fear, ignorance, and revenge.
It’s about carrying inner hate and love, letting it grow, and spreading it.

But most of all,
it’s about using your life to touch or poison other people’s hearts
in such a way that could have never occurred alone.
Only you choose the way those hearts are affected,
and those choices are what life’s about.

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May 22, 2007 by SUM.

As I have already mentioned in my last Crest Night Effects post I have to find a reliable lawyer who will support me in my pursuit of justice. Yesterday, I found the letter from Dr. G. in my files, which were, since moving my household last year, not properly filed yet.

After posting this article I’ll contact lawyers to find out what kind of possibilities I have in my pursuit of justice.

Dr. G. wrote her letter on June 3rd, 2005 and she mailed copies of her letter to two other physicians at the UW dental clinic. Her letter consisted of three pages and two copies of scientific papers on ‘dental erosion.’

Without going too much into her letter, I believe a lawyer needs to examine this letter more closely, I noticed a few errors in it. Here I would like to mention only two major errors. One major error was that she assumed that my diet and health history had been constant over the years, which is not the case. And the other major error was that she wrote in her letter that she had based her findings on a different product from Crest tooth whitening.

The product she referred to in her letter was also from the brand Crest, but it wasn’t the product that I had applied to my teeth in July 2004. She confused Crest Whitening Strips with Crest Night Effects, which is a totally different product.

During her examination she actually had not asked me for a sample of the product that I had applied to my teeth. She actually didn’t know the product that I had used and made an assessment that was faulty from the beginning.

As I have mentioned already in my previous posts I should never have been transferred to her. After I had read her letter, I couldn’t believe that I received such a letter from a physician working at the UW dental clinic. Her errors were obvious and her assessment based on the wrong facts. She ended her letter telling me that I could give her a call if I have questions.

Since I experienced a wrong transferal, a bogus examination, and a faulty assessment based on the wrong facts, I chose not to contact Dr. G. or any other UW dental clinic employee.

But the UW dental clinic kept on sending me the invoice that I refuse to pay. Reasons for not wanting to pay the invoice are described in this post and the previous ones.

For quite some time I received the invoice directly from the UW accounting center. Lately, I receive letters from a collection agency based in Tempe, AZ.

The amount of the bill has slightly increased, and it wouldn’t be a financial burden for me to pay it, but in my opinion it is not appropriate to pay a bill that has been wrong from the beginning.

So, here are the two matters I need to tackle with. I have to tackle with an incorrect invoice from the UW dental clinic send to collection and a company whose product has damaged my teeth.

After posting this article I’ll contact lawyers myself, but if you know of a reliable lawyer who works in the legal fields that I need help in, please forward this article to this person so that they can read it and decide whether they want to contact me.

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May 13, 2007 by SUM.

Since I mentioned in my previous post that my invigoration number is number three I’ll like to describe here the metaphysical meaning of number three. Below is an excerpt from my book “Invisible Cloak” that also covers the meaning of the qualitative attributes of numbers. Since my book still needs to be copy-edited, I ask you to be lenient with my English writing style.

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First of all, I had just an intuitive flash of the role-play of numbers—I call this now cosmic revelation. It happened while I worked at Microsoft in Redmond, Washington State.

One day I started to say to my co-workers “I’m influenced by number three.” I actually said it a few times without being consciously aware of the significance or metaphysical attributes of number three. I just intuitively knew—below the threshold of my consciousness—that the number three played a significant role in my life…

Since the day I had said, “I’m influenced by number three”, my curiosity for number symbolism was awakened, and I wanted to know specifically what other connotations number three had in addition to its quantitative meaning.

For that reason only, one day I decided to peruse the new age/metaphysical book section at the Barnes & Noble bookstore. There I noticed a numerology book that I had once seen when I lived in Germany. While I lived in Germany, I had not been interested in metaphysical studies although my ex-husband had been. Actually, I was very skeptical about this matter, and I felt aloof towards the metaphysical realm. Now, I decided to buy it. As I previously mentioned, things will be revealed to you when you are ready to receive it. Certainly, the time had come for me to discover and understand…

Coming back to my inquiry about the qualitative meaning of numbers especially number three, I read that most cultures regard number three as a fundamental number, which exhibits the qualities of completion. A simple example for its fundamental meaning is one and two make three, and the three being the result of the action of one and two.

Another example of its fundamental attributes are: birth, growth, and death; beginning, middle, and end; past, present, and future. For Christianity the God-Father, God-Son, and the Holy Ghost trinity are represented by it. In esoteric terms it’s seen as the super-conscious, subconscious, and conscious mind. And the mystic healers of Hawaii, the Kalunas (Huna), know of Low Self (subconscious), Middle Self (objective consciousness), High Self (cosmic Self or God within).

As can be seen from these examples, the number three has the meaning of completion and diversity. The same principle can be observed in physical matter. For example, atoms consist of three parts: protons, neutrons, and electrons. Though they seem outwards as a unity, they are not. But they are interrelated and exert some kind of force on each other.

I learned that the day of my birth twenty-one deduces to the single-digit number value three (2+1=3). Basic numerology teaches to reduce double-digit numbers to a single-digit number by just adding the two digits.

Here I had the answer why the number three played such a significant role in my life. The number three is my invigoration number. I am born on day twenty-one. Numerology teaches that the attributes or vibrations of the number of the day we were born invigorate us, but we are not consciously aware of this principle until it’s brought into light.

Bear in mind, the metaphysical meaning for number three is: the entity conscious, subconscious, and super-conscious are interrelated and exert some kind of force on each other. If number three invigorates you, you’ll gain knowledge and wisdom when your life experiences are taking place on an interrelated diverse dynamic level.

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May 11, 2007 by SUM.

You may have already read my post ‘Symbols and numbers’. There I outlined some of the connecting links of my numerological profile showing up in the number Pi. I just read the Washington State history on the web site historylink.org and I noticed quite a few data and dates that play a prominent role in my life, too. I’m listing the data and dates so that you can see for yourself. You may want to investigate, too, where you can notice a correlation with your own data and dates to the residence of your place.

In some cases I’ll reduce the numbers or dates to a single-digit number.

- Washington State is one of the 48 continuous United States.

Washington State is the first and only state that I ever have been a resident of in the United States. The number 48 can be reduced to a single-digit number three (4+8=12 and 1+2=3), which is my invigoration number derived from my birthday 21 (2+1=3).

- Washington State occupies 66,582 square miles.

When adding all these number together (6+6+5+8+2=27), I arrive at the number of the day when I immigrated into the United States.

- Washington State borders on the east at the Idaho border at 117 degrees longitude.

My life lesson number is 11 and destiny number is 7. Adding these numbers together (11+7=18 and 1+8=9) I arrive at my master number nine.

- Washington State borders Canada on the north along the 49th parallel.

My destiny number squared is number 49.

- Washington State borders Oregon on the south along the Columbia River along the 46th parallel.

The numerical equivalent of my first name is number 46 (U=21, T=20, E=5 and 21+20+5=46).

- 27 settlers petitioned on August 29, 1851 Congress for a separate “Columbia Territory” (named later “Washington”) covering the area between the Columbia River and 49th parallel.

I immigrated on day 27 the United States, and my grandfather was born on August 29, 1889.

- Congress approved the new territory, renamed Washington, on February 10, 1853.

When adding all the numbers of this date (2+10+1+8+5+3=29 and 2+9=11 and 1+1=2), I arrive at my life lesson number, which fluctuates between 11 and/or 2.

- Washington was admitted to the Union in 1889.

My grandfather was born in the year 1889.

- The square dance (or quadrille) was named the official state dance on April 17, 1979.

I married in 1979. When adding all the numbers from this date (4+1+7+1+9+7+9=38 and 3+8=11 and 1+1=2), I arrive again at my life lesson number 11 and/or 2.

There are still some other dates on the historylink.org that play a role in my life, but that should do for right now.

I just want to mention here that my destiny number seven plays predominantly a role in my life, and Seattle consists of seven letters. The numerical equivalent of the name ‘Seattle’ is number one, which is also the numerical equivalent of my first and last name.

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May 10, 2007 by SUM.

I just read on another site about the history of the Cape Flattery trail. Now it’s a very pleasant trail, but that hasn’t always been so. Jeff Logan writes on his site that the sightseers from all over the world hiked before the renovation “through a muddy, poorly maintained trail - and risked plunging off dangerous cliffs to see one of the most breathtaking views on the Pacific Coast.”

I’m glad that I walked the trail after its renovation.

But some other work is imminent there, too. Work is actually already going on at the access road to Cape Flattery. At the moment the access road is paved quite frequently with potholes. And at times the road is covered with potholes from the furthest right to the furthest left for a length of 20-30 feet or more along the road. And you just cannot avoid these holes by driving around them.

While driving on this road I asked myself several times whether I should turn around because the road was in such bad shape, but I kept on driving because each time after having passed such a pothole stretch I thought that this must have been the last one.

Though the access road is at the moment quite challenging, I’m glad that I visited this place with its most breathtaking views on the Pacific Coast.

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May 10, 2007 by SUM.

I have to keep on writing about this matter because I need a reliable lawyer who will support me in my pursuit of justice.

So far I’ve not been compensated for the pain and damage caused by this product. Additionally, the wrongful treatment at the UW, not to mention the suffering that I endured because of it, had as a result a bill from the UW dental clinic that I refuse to pay because of reasons outlined already in my previous posts.

I’m pretty much convinced now that someone instigated something against me and due to this person’s influence in this area others have partaken in it. What I’ve experienced here is not only unacceptable and corruptive, it is just plain wrong.

For a few years now I’m experiencing constantly some kind of deception, misinformation, and wrongful treatment when visiting physician offices. Therefore I’m writing about it publicly instead of just keeping it locked away in my private journal.

I didn’t receive an answer from the dean of the UW dental clinic, but I received a letter from Dr. G. who just repeated her conclusion, which she had told me already during her bogus examination. As soon I find her letter in my files I’ll write about it.

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May 8, 2007 by SUM.

Last week I took a few days off and toured the Olympic Peninsula with Kari who is originally from Norway. A couple years ago I met Kari at the Seattle Astronomy Club of which her husband is a member.

We both like to travel and she accepted my proposal to explore together the unique countryside of Washington State. Though I have been living here for almost 19 years, I actually haven’t seen many places in this state. Therefore I thought that it is time to get out and explore more of this great place, which offers anything from rain forest to the desert.

Our trip lasted only 2 1/2 days, but we drove around the Peninsula, stayed overnight in two motels, in Port Townsend and Forks, and visited some splendid places including Cape Flattery, which is the furthest northwest point of the contiguous United States. Pictures of this tour and some additional tourist information are posted under the page Out & About.

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May 2, 2007 by SUM.

In one of my earlier posts I wrote that I mailed a letter to the dean of the UW dental clinic on 16th May 2005. In the letter to the dean I stated the following reasons for my request to have the charge of $240.00 canceled.

1. Receiving an incorrect referral (which I didn’t know at that time) from the UW School of Dentistry to Dr. G. at the Oral Medicine Clinical Services on Feb 7, 2005.

2. Dr. G. didn’t use appropriate methods and technological equipment for the examination of my teeth for the reasons why I had contacted the UW School of Dentistry from the beginning.

3. Dr. G.’s reasons for the damage to my teeth were based not on scientific knowledge and the correct use of current technology, but on feelings.

I also wrote that I considered her physical examination and her conclusions neither scientific accurate nor appropriate for a research school.

Additionally, I added that it was not appropriate from Dr. G. to tell me that my perception was incorrect. Dr. G. had told me during the bogus examination that my teeth must have been damaged before I used Crest Night Effects. But I knew that my teeth had looked quite different before I applied Crest Night Effects on my lower anterior teeth.

I also wrote that I had visited a dentist office in Bellevue after I had consulted with Dr. G., and the dentist had confirmed that the damage to my teeth must have occurred after I had taken the x-rays in February 2004. Additionally, I mentioned that Dr. G. hadn’t followed-through with her words. Up to that time I had neither received a phone call nor a letter from her telling me whom else I could contact for further examinations at the UW dental clinic.

Now, two years later I’m writing about this case, after not receiving appropriate service and correct information. Over time it became obvious to me that Dr. G. had a hidden agenda. But she isn’t the only one and is involved in this matter, too. I’ll continue writing about this matter in other posts, but I like to mention here that this ordeal has additionally caused me harm not only financially, but in areas that I’ll confront later.

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